Today I am writing on word press after 4 days, there were some problems due to which I was unable to write anything, though my heart and my mind had some massive fights with each other on the problems I just mentioned above.
My uncle died four days ago and It was a heart breaking news for me, I just had a conversation with him on phone 15 days earlier, his heart collapse and he couldn’t make it. May Allah bless him in life hereafter, amen. I went to his home (out of city) for condolence, and then just caught up into different thoughts and actually very deep thoughts.
Death has taken one more person in time, and as usual left so many questions behind. I am always afraid of death, not because of fear of dying or leaving this beautiful world or family, but just because of the life hereafter, the dome day.
Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception.
Being a Muslim, I should not fear death, but fear only Allah. This is what I do, but I am not satisfied with what I am doing with my life. I just ask Allah for repentance.
Repentance is the most noble and beloved form of obedience in the eyes of Allah Ta’ala. He loves those who repent and it is because of His love for His creation that He tests them with sins so that He may shower His blessings and favors upon them after they repent.
Al-Baqara (The Cow) 2:160
Excepted, however, shall be they that repent, and put themselves to rights, and make known the truth: and it is they whose repentance I shall accept-for I alone am the Acceptor of Repentance, the Dispenser of Grace.
I am trying my best to be an obedient human of Allah. Who created me, give me life and Who will take me from here one day. I just pray to Allah, Please make me a person just the way you like. Help me and bless me. Ameen